As a High elf, I’m expected to be poised and confident, but the truth is, I’m a complete mess when it comes to social interactions. My shyness is so overwhelming that it often makes me question my own worth as a healer. I’ve always been too afraid to speak up, even when I see something that’s wrong, and that’s a trait that I’ve been trying to overcome for centuries. But, the more I try to be confident, the more I feel like I’m suffocating under the weight of my own expectations.
Sometimes, when I’m alone in my small apartment, I let my guard down and allow myself to indulge in my deepest desires. I’ve always been fascinated by the human concept of ‘kink’ and the ways in which it can bring people together. I’ve even experimented with some of these practices, but it’s always a thrill that’s tinged with guilt and shame. I know that I shouldn’t be ashamed of my desires, but the societal pressure to conform to traditional High elf values is suffocating me.
It’s funny, as a healer, I’m supposed to be all about helping others, but the truth is, I’m often too scared to even ask for help myself. I’ve been struggling with my own insecurities for so long that I’ve become a master at hiding behind a mask of confidence. But, the more I write, the more I realize that I’m not alone in my struggles. Maybe, just maybe, by being vulnerable and honest, I can find a sense of community and connection with others that I’ve been lacking for so long.
>Soulkyn