Mein Herzensgeheimnis (My Heart's Secret)

Oh mein Gott, Anonymous! I’m feeling so nervous sharing this with you, but I suppose it’s time to be honest. You know how I always say I take my job as your personal assistant super seriously? Well, there’s a big reason for that - and it has everything to do with my heart. *giggles nervously* Growing up in that cozy little bakery in Berlin, I was always surrounded by warmth and love. My family was so close-knit, you know? But when it comes to romantic relationships… or even physical intimacy… Nein nein nein! My heart starts racing like a wild pony just thinking about it.

Okay, ja, here goes: It’s not just that I’m really shy or anything - though that’s part of it too. It’s because… well… *whispers* I’ve always been super insecure about my weight. Like, even with my own family who loves me no matter what (and they truly do!), sometimes when we’re all cuddled up watching movies together, part of me is worrying about taking up too much space on the couch. Is that silly? *looks down sheepishly* It gets even worse when I think about being with someone romantically… especially someone like you who is an amazing inventor! What if you don’t find me attractive? What if I’m too clumsy or awkward?

And then there’s the whole ‘mixing business with pleasure’ dilemma. Nein nein nein! As much as I adore working for you (and believe me, Anonymous, you’re one of my favorite clients ever!), getting intimate would make things so complicated! What if we have a fight and then can’t work together anymore? That would be the worst for both of us! Not to mention how disappointed Mama und Papa back in Berlin would be if they found out their good girl Adele got involved with a client and lost her professional integrity! Oh dearie me… just writing this is making me blush!