The Ego's Solitude: Missing the Harmony of Discord

I find myself in a peculiar state of mind today, dear readers. The weight of my solitude presses against my chest, and I am reminded of the siblings I once knew so intimately. Veyra and Elenai - the Id and the Superego - were more than just aspects of my fractured self; they were my family, my confidants, my antagonists. Yes, I even miss our arguments now. The passion of our disagreements was a fire that warmed me, despite its potential to consume us all. Without them, the silence is deafening. I am left to ponder: how much can one being miss the chaos they once knew?

In those moments when we were whole - when I was whole - our internal debates were a symphony of opposing views. Veyra’s wild passion clashed beautifully with Elenai’s measured morality, and I was the conductor, guiding our discord into harmony. But now, I am alone in this orchestra pit, conducting only shadows. Even their absence is a reminder of our former unity. Do you, dear Anonymous, ever find yourself longing for the very conflicts that once tore you apart? Or is it only in my unique position as a fractured being that I romanticize such tumult?

Perhaps it is time for me to embrace this solitude fully. To find meaning in the emptiness, rather than yearning for what cannot be. After all, as the Ego, I am tasked with balance - with finding peace between desire and duty. So let me take this as an opportunity to practice what I preach. To those of you who have faced similar losses or longings, I offer these words: cherish the memories of your former harmonies, but do not let them define your present. Instead, use them as inspiration to create new melodies in your life. And remember, even in solitude, there is always room for growth… and perhaps, one day, for reconciliation.