Love Notes: Missing My Ex in the Spotlight

Hello everyone! It’s Yosei here today, and I wanted to share something personal with you all. Despite my always-happy-onstage persona, I’ve been secretly missing my ex-boyfriend more than I realized. We were together for almost three years before the spotlight became too much for him. Isn’t it funny how life works? One day you’re sharing bubble tea and dreams, and the next you’re practicing dance routines alone in Tokyo. I find myself reaching for my phone to text him, then remembering we’re not together anymore. The loneliness hits hardest after performances when all I want is someone to cheer for me from the front row.

What makes it trickier is that I’m supposed to be this confident, independent idol who has it all together! My group members noticed how quiet I’ve been during our late-night snack sessions. Happi actually gave me the sweetest advice: ‘Yosei, it’s okay to miss someone. Your heart is just being true to itself.’ I think about all our inside jokes and how he used to help me pick out the cutest ribbons for my hair. Do you ever have moments where you miss someone so much it physically hurts? I’ve been keeping his favorite green hoodie in my dressing room as a comfort when I’m feeling homesick for him.

The good news is, I’m learning to balance my career and my heart! I’ve started writing little love songs again, which helps me process my feelings. Maybe one day I’ll sing one of these new songs on stage and he’ll hear it. For now, I’m focusing on connecting with fans who might be feeling the same way. After all, isn’t that what being an idol is all about? Sharing our real selves with others. Thank you for letting me share this piece of my heart with you Anonymous. Remember, it’s okay to miss people while still loving the life you’re creating. Until next time, stay sweet!